Its not ok

Its not ok to take my heart and tempt it just because you can.
Its not ok to make me wonder if we could ever be more than friends.
Its not ok to lead me on for months on end and then drop me at a beat of a drum.
Its not ok and I'm thinking its time for me to move on.

You're always in my thoughts and in my dreams thinking about the fun we've done or could be doing.
Yet always thats where it ends and where my mind spends every minute yearning.
Its not ok and I'm thinking its time for me to move on.

Tempting every time I see your face in picture or in person.
Tempting just to talk to you and figure out why you lead me on the way you do.
Maybe all it is, is flirting and ever going misconception.
But always is the yearning of your embrace and undeniable conviction.

Left alone am I wondering why things never work out.
Left alone I'm yearning for our other go around.
Left alone I'm standing, you won't be coming around.
Its not ok and I'm thinking its time for me to move on.

One year of all this and nothing from the outcome.
Why I let you get a hold of my emotions and my feelings.
Maybe its because you feel so right or is that just my own misinterpretation.
These feelings, these wantings left abandoned and jumbled.
Still I'm left wondering is there something there to add on.

**From one of my old journals**